Tagged! - Spilling the guts.

So now that everyone knows what being tagged means, I can spill the guts.
Ladies and Gentlemen, this is Saumya Jain out and about for the whole world for one time, thanks to the lady. (Remember, what follows is privileged information! and you're getting it for free, grrr!. OK, maybe the silly internet charge - that doesn't count)

Oh I just came to know, it was the international women's day yesterday, all the more reason. [Official] This post dedicated to Shubha, my rep for all things woman :)[/Official]

I FEAR

• Death
  Death represents not only loss or pain or sorrow to the next of kin, I fear death for much more. A dying man takes with him all his unfulfilled quests, dreams, desires, thirsts, longings. Talk about unfinished business. Its a great leveller, but I fear it nevertheless.
• Loneliness
  I have been a total introvert. I used to be alone most of the time. Lately, however, that has not been the case. I am around with a lotsa people all the time. So much so, I take time out to be with myself for a change. But too much loneliness gives me the creeps. I want to be a part of a sea of humanity. Maybe that's why I love the discotheque.
• Small talk
  Not my idea of a perfect way to pass the time. I can discuss business with anyone and everyone. Without business, I dont talk. I keep shut. Zipped up, so to say. Very poor at making pointless conversations. Especially on the face. Very especially with a girl.

I LAUGH WITH

• Myself
  Never fail to amaze myself. Whether its searching for the cycle keys when I have them between my teeth, or fretting over an assignment that I have already submitted, I have made sure that I kept laughing all the way to this day.
• Pratyush
  No need to explain. We are almost brothers. More. Pulls out a smile from me in everything he does.
• KJ
  My sis. My chhoti behen from the time she was born to the time she started talking. Since then, I have been considered the youngest one in the family.

I LOVE

• You know who
  If you know me, you already know who's the numero uno on this list.
• Myself
  Never before since the time of Narcissus has anyone loved himself more.
• A sleepy february afternoon ... and it starts raining in campus.
• Myself again
  Goes on to prove point no. 2 :)

I HATE

• To see myself spiralling down into nothingness, for nothing at all.
• People who lie to themselves.
• Waking up from sleep, especially if I am dreaming. :)

I DON'T UNDERSTAND

• Women
  Seems nobody gets round to that!
  
• What's this whole hullabaloo about being in love. Its just a state. Like being drunk, for example.
• Why people complicate their lives so much. Its all very simple if you just look at the situation from a little higher perspective.
  

ON MY DESK YOU'LL FIND

• Keys
  Lotsa keys. I am a lock and key person. I just feel safe around them.
  
• Paper
  Rough paper, roughed up paper, blanks, printed, scribbled upon, sweated upon etc.
  
• Empty ciggy boxes, from a long time back.
  

THINGS I AM DOING RIGHT NOW

• Listening to Ghulam Ali
  "Maine lakhon ke bol sahe..."
• Contemplating dropping out of college, sans an engineering degree.
• Writing this post, duuuuh!
  

THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

• Raise a child with a woman I am totally and madly in love with (a lots of children, actually)
  
• Go on a world tour with a camera
• Jump off a cliff, just for kicks!
  
• Introduce a new world order, one without boundaries, without war, suffering. In short, Utopia. But yes, I can dream of it, you can dream of it. Why not, then?
  

THINGS I CAN DO

• Be very confused about everything
• Sleep endlessly for a whole day
• Read, Write and Count

THINGS I CAN NEVER DO

• Speak to a gathering without getting the blues.
• Look at a girl in the eye for more than 8 seconds.
• Become Jeff Murdoch, although as much as I would want to! Sigh! :(
  

THINGS YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO

• The small voice in your head. Listen to it everytime.
• Your Parents.
• Ghulam Ali
• Simon n Garfunkel
  

THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER LISTEN TO

• Strangers
• Yourself when you are drunk/high. Especially if one of your aims in life is to jump off a cliff, just for kicks :)
  
• Am I allowed to say, Heemays Resammaiyya ? [figure that out :)]
  

WOULD LIKE TO LEARN

• A lot of languages
• Ball room dancing. The one with the 3 piece suits and the white gowns. That one.
  
• Actually, if there is anything out there that is there to be learnt, I'd like to learn it.
  

FOODS I EAT

• Sweets.
  Actually, I believe, sugar is a very good solvent for bad taste. Anything sweet, and I am up for it. Laddoos are just the top ones on the list.
  
• Anything well prepared and well served.
• Anything that my Mom makes (for the love of it), my Sister prepares (for the fear of her) and whatever my wife will prepare sometime in the future (for the sheer romance of it all)
• For Thought.
  

BEVERAGES I DRINK

• Water
• Tea + Coffee
• Milk
• Blood, if that counts, eh heh heh!
  

TV SHOWS/BOOKS I WATCHED/READ AS A KID

• I was fed on TeeVee and Books. Cannot list 'em down like this.
• Was crazy about Comics till a time, after which Children's Pop Science books took over. Not too much into Novels and stuff. Have read random picks from Daddy's collection.
• All DD shows of mid-90s. Lately, Sony and Star Plus. "Surabhi" (Sunday nights on DD1) was a good one.
• Watched Cartoons till very late. Would still be watching T&J, Dexter's Lab, Popeye et al had it not been a strange discord with the television set that I have been experiencing lately.
  

I WOULD LOVE TO TAG

• You?

So, this post draws to its end. I'd like to invite comments + additions which I would happily incorporate to "things about myself" in this post.

'til then.